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Somewhere in this universe Kenichi Matsuyama is celebrating his 28th birthday. Somewhere I have no idea of. Just as how clueless he is of my existence, of this photo’s existence. 

I made this just like any other fangirl around the world would. I made this to express my love for Matuken. Hihi. I really look up to him and this simple things are my ways of supporting him.

Wherever you are Kenichi/Toru/Soichi/Daikichi/some guy from Gokusen/Mirume/L, I wish you a happy, happy birthday!

Stay healthy and always be happy with your wife and beautiful kids. We’re always here to support you. Keep on doing great films. You’re not just very handsome but you are overflowing with talents as well. I hope you will be blessed more. Take care.

Abegail, random fangirl

March 5, 2013

Manila, Philippines

When I was still starting, I only wanted to cosplay so that I can be of the same level with my then cosplayer crush. I tried hard cosplaying girly characters and ended up being pressured more than pleasured. Good thing I have very helpful friends who also wish to cosplay. I encouraged them and eventually, we were able to cosplay in groups. I enjoyed that more and forgot about my immature goals. I was still thankful to that person though, for igniting the spark of light that I have for the love of cosplaying. :)

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That light grew into a fire and kept on burning.

One year and a few months have passed, I have cosplayed quite a few characters and I still have plenty on my list. Cosplay somehow became my vice but in a good way. I enjoy every convention that I attend with my friends and we got to meet more and more friends along the way. And just recently, an entirely different door opened for me.

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Because of cosplaying I was able to be a part of a TV show which was filmed in Tagaytay. The first time I went to that place was when I was in 6th grade for our field trip. Never have I imagined that the second time would be for a taping. I was really honored to be part of it even though I was just an extra. The experience was extraordinary and I gained more respect to actors after that shoot. I was very, very tired. Considering I only had a very small fraction of exposure, the entire shoot was exhausting. What more for Kris Bernal and Mike Tan? They are GMA artists and the main characters of the show that we were filming.

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They were really great and they act so naturally. Plus, both of them were super kind! And it was nice to know that Mike also cosplays before and he knew some of the characters that we cosplayed on the shoot! Not to mention I had a crush on him during Starstruck days. Hihi. Kris seemed really interested on cosplay as well or was she only curious, I’m not sure. But she’s really very professional and humble at the same time.

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My cosplaymates were equally great actors too. Most of them already had an on-cam acting/performing experience and so they guided me. I was able to perform well because their performance inspired me to do so. I promised myself to definitely do better next time if there’s any.

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The experience all-in-all was memorable. From the road trip to the shooting itself.

Bunch of thanks to the GMA representative who gave us this opportunity; to Marvin and his very supportive parents; to Jenny and her brother Arcel who allowed me to go alongside them to the meeting place; to Chii, Misaki, Micah and Jenny for the assistance (makeup, costumes, performance and all); to Sir Mack, Reiku and Marvin’s mom for catching these happy moments with their own camera, to Dennis, Marvin and Sir Mack for keeping the long ride entertaining with their undying jokes and random stories.

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If ever given a chance I would want to participate in this kind of activity again. Cosplay is not only about wearing a character’s clothes, it’s being able to entertain others, gaining friends and having fun along the process.

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Had a short bonding time with my college friend last week and he mentioned that he is going to enroll at a music school. He seriously wanted to venture into music-writing I suppose. I was glad to know that his parents supports him 100% and even promised to get him a good akai mpd24 once they’ve settled the prioritized expenditures.

It is really nice to have such talented friends. I can’t wait to hear his songs on the radio. ^_^

Truly God blesses those who knows how to utilize the talents being given to them.


Happy Fourth Anniversary to Owl City Philippines, my adoptive hoot owl home base! :) 

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It is not the strongest of the species that survives, nor the most intelligent, but the one most responsive to change.

Charles Darwin

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“If there is one thing you can give to the Philippines, what is that gift?”

Since the day I laid eyes on this question, it will run through my train of thoughts like a popup ad from time to time. I thought that if I were on a pageant and was asked this question, I would probably end up as a runner up for I won’t be able to answer this in an instant.

So one day I did something a little funny, while waiting for my cosplaymates finish their makeups, sitting on a flower bench somewhere in Ninoy Aquino Parks and Wildlife, I closed my eyes and pictured my country in my head. I imagined what it has become from everything that happened. Indeed, so many challenges have come our way as a nation but we stood up. Sometimes our beliefs differ but somehow, people learned to understand and accept. Not everyone lives in abundance but we were able to face each day with a smile. “Filipinos,” my inner self muttered. I opened my eyes unaware of the small upward curve my lips had made. When I looked around, my friends were still busy doing their own thing. I was relieved for I know that explaining how proud I am with my country would look weird if it comes from the lips of the anime character that I was cosplaying then. After they were done, I let the thought leave my mind for a while as we proceeded with the cosplay shoot.

Days passed and like a popup ad, the question came to me again. I was walking from Recto Station to our review center a few blocks away. Late as I’ve always been, I was close to running that time. Yet I kept a steady pace and just took larger than normal steps so as not to look like I just snatched somebody else’s phone. But the question was still in my head. And with me walking that fast, my daydream method just wouldn’t work. I tried to shake the thought away when I felt my steps slow down a little bit. I realized I was about to cross the street but not only that. I saw a lot of people. Different kinds of people. I saw men and women selling street foods, books, hand-made accessories, pirated DVDs and school supplies on the sidewalk. I saw children jumping from jeepneys holding envelopes and I was sure what those were for. I saw students walking to and from their universities. I have no idea what their stories are but I witnessed different types of survival mechanism. Survive. Young or old, that’s what all of us have been doing since the beginning.

What seemed like a normal rushing-to-class moment lead me to this article. Thinking that each and every person in this country struggle everyday to survive, there’s nothing as general as a gift but sincere prayers and I pledge to give that every single day. But when it comes to the physical help, the material things, I admit I am too small to give a place this big a gift from my own.

I am 21 years old yet I still feel small. What more to those who actually are? Those who are helpless physically. Those who have no knowledge of living on their own yet. Yes, I am talking about babies. I may not be able to do this on my own that’s why l can only wish with the help of #GLOBEProjectWonderful2014 that new-born babies suffering from serious illnesses will be given immediate help in any way possible. This case is very personal for me because as an aunt, I have seen my five-month old nephew be rushed in a hospital because of different complications arising one after the other. These are weaklings from the start struggling to survive. We, adults, are the only ones who can help them. But not all families have the resources to send a kid to the hospital especially when the fees for the birth of the child took all the savings away. Pardon me for always citing my family’s experiences with this but yes, we experienced that as well. Praying for my sister to undergo a normal delivery because caesarean section is too expensive. Being thankful that it actually was a normal delivery only to find out that the kid had an imperforate anus which means its rectum wasn’t developed properly so he had to be rushed to the hospital at that very moment. He’s merely a day old!Witnessing a tiny human being struggle as different apparatus were attached to him. Watching him grow with all the medications. It was like a storm surge but with the sun in it. The challenges are hard but the innocent face of a child would make any relative do anything just to make sure that the illness is cured. That’s why I am wishing for any form of help to those children who suffer serious complications. I can only say “any form of help” because I don’t have any specific details regarding what disease is to be prioritized or what actual help can be done but as long as it can make the child feel better as soon as possible, that would be the best gift ever. It’s only us who can do this for them. Who knows, one of those children might be big enough to change what is needed to be changed in this country someday?

This country is indeed very blessed yet it still lacks a lot of things, we have to admit that. What’s important is that we take steps into making a change. I believe a lot of us have more ideas in mind and it would be great to learn about yours. If you reached up to this point, I encourage you to answer the same question: “If there is one thing you can give to the Philippines, what is that gift?”

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To truly laugh, you must be able to take your pain, and play with it.
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